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Hey.
Is anyone still here?
Probably not anyone that would care, but in any case, I managed to break back into here. Somehow it still means something. Maybe because it's one of the few places that has a long memory of my internet presence. All the fanfic, all the fandom rants, and a fuck ton of cringe.
Not sure what I'm going to be doing here. I suppose it feels less vulnerable that fucking around on Pillowfort while I'm waiting to see if I can get any friends to migrate there from tumblr. I'm still not good at being pushy. Been feeling nostalgic lately, much as I hate saying that. Nostalgia has been rotting the brain of my generation. I suppose it's no wonder given we were promised a future that never really came to pass, but i don't want this to get depressing.
For the most part I've avoided the nostalgia brain rot. I think partially because a lot of the things people get nostalgic about, I really couldn't give a shit or i don't see how updating it is a bad thing. No I don't care if x character is black/female/queer, I don't care if a story is interpreted in a different way, and I really don't care about whatever gamers whine about. Honestly, they should put their energy into whining about the quality of the games when they come out or the empty predatory nature of live service games. Those reasons alone are why i haven't gotten around to buying a replacement PS4 for the one I lost in a move. I wish I hadn't sold my PS2 and games back in the day. It's not like I got much for it. Anyway, I would be so mad if I was hype about a game and it came out half jank, and anyway it seems like every other game these days is open world and I prefer a more hybrid approach if not a completely linear game with side quests. Like, I'm old school af.
Anyway, I've succumb to retro gaming via emulation, which I know is illegal, blah, blah, and believe me if i had money I'd buy a GBA, PS1, and PS2 on ebay and all my favourite games (aside from maybe FF7 lmao. Honestly, I played that game enough, and while a part of me really does want to play the remake, there's another part of me that's wildly insulted that they've split it up into different games???? Like Part one and part two, are you fucking high? Y'all been working on this fucking game since 2008 and you're gonna pull some Last of Us shit???? Exhausting), but I don't have an infinite money hack so I gotta be sneaky.
Currently I'm running RetroArch with emu cores for Gameboy Advance, PS1, and PSP. I also have PCSX2 installed, and though I could use it through RetroArch, when I tried it with a tester game it ran like shiiiiiitttt. Worked better in the actual program. Tbh, I wanted to get it to work so I could play Star Ocean 3 again. I've really missed that game and have been wanting to see if it holds up for me. Might even post about it here. Who knows. Aside from it looking a little less....shiny(?) than I remembered, it runs shockingly well on my laptop. I also kinda can't believe both discs only take up 4 gigs in all. The game is huge, especially with all the extra dungeon stuff after you beat the game. I'm surprised by how much I remember, although I don't know why. I went through a phase where i was trying to see all the endings and have played through the game just...so many times. Pretty sure I've seen like...half of them? I think i eventually gave up on even pretending to be a competitionist because all I really wanted to see was Albel and Fayt arguing like an old married couple and the implication that they slept awfully close in their travel tent like? I'm sorry, Albel was technically born well enough off, is probably rich, and lusts for nothing but battle and power, so somehow, I think he's going to have enough money to get them a big enough tent so that Fayt should have no idea that Albel is a restless, kicky sleeper. Unless they're fucking of course. Which they totally are.Oh boy. Here we go again.
Anyway, I will say I'm slightly shocked by how...dodgy the character models look. Like, I think in my head it was a more...like for some reason I remembering it being one of those games that came out in the twilight years of the PS2 that was pushing it's limits, the way Final Fantasy IX did for the PS1, when it's absolutely not. I'm still impressed by the way the character models move in cut scenes. They're more natural in gestures, but it's the faces that bug me a lot more than I remember. See, Star Ocean has an anime aesthetic and it's reflected in the character models with mixed results. Male character fare a bit better, given that they're usually drawn with slightly less exaggerated features, but the facial models in cut scenes really do tend to have a haunted doll look. Not a deal breaker, just something I'm noticing and the longer I play, the less off putting I find it. It is a game that could use some cell shading for sure.
It's going to be a powerful temptation to play it intermittently all weekend to try to get to Albel. *sighs* I know it's a lot longer than I remember until you get to the first option to recruit him. Iirc, he starts at level 20...possibly 25, and usually Fayt was level 30-odd. In any case, it's usually best to get him early as you can, otherwise you're gonna end up taking a detour to level his narrow ass, which iirc means grinding Moonbase quite a bit. Not ideal.
Ugh, I'm rambling already.
Idek, I've also been considering from time to time writing for real for real, a decent VG fic. lmao, all the stuff i wrote as a teen was shit, fucking pure garbage, and the stuff I wrote here awhile back is pretty shit too. I swear i only became a better writer as i've become a role-player and written with others.
Hey.
Is anyone still here?
Probably not anyone that would care, but in any case, I managed to break back into here. Somehow it still means something. Maybe because it's one of the few places that has a long memory of my internet presence. All the fanfic, all the fandom rants, and a fuck ton of cringe.
Not sure what I'm going to be doing here. I suppose it feels less vulnerable that fucking around on Pillowfort while I'm waiting to see if I can get any friends to migrate there from tumblr. I'm still not good at being pushy. Been feeling nostalgic lately, much as I hate saying that. Nostalgia has been rotting the brain of my generation. I suppose it's no wonder given we were promised a future that never really came to pass, but i don't want this to get depressing.
For the most part I've avoided the nostalgia brain rot. I think partially because a lot of the things people get nostalgic about, I really couldn't give a shit or i don't see how updating it is a bad thing. No I don't care if x character is black/female/queer, I don't care if a story is interpreted in a different way, and I really don't care about whatever gamers whine about. Honestly, they should put their energy into whining about the quality of the games when they come out or the empty predatory nature of live service games. Those reasons alone are why i haven't gotten around to buying a replacement PS4 for the one I lost in a move. I wish I hadn't sold my PS2 and games back in the day. It's not like I got much for it. Anyway, I would be so mad if I was hype about a game and it came out half jank, and anyway it seems like every other game these days is open world and I prefer a more hybrid approach if not a completely linear game with side quests. Like, I'm old school af.
Anyway, I've succumb to retro gaming via emulation, which I know is illegal, blah, blah, and believe me if i had money I'd buy a GBA, PS1, and PS2 on ebay and all my favourite games (aside from maybe FF7 lmao. Honestly, I played that game enough, and while a part of me really does want to play the remake, there's another part of me that's wildly insulted that they've split it up into different games???? Like Part one and part two, are you fucking high? Y'all been working on this fucking game since 2008 and you're gonna pull some Last of Us shit???? Exhausting), but I don't have an infinite money hack so I gotta be sneaky.
Currently I'm running RetroArch with emu cores for Gameboy Advance, PS1, and PSP. I also have PCSX2 installed, and though I could use it through RetroArch, when I tried it with a tester game it ran like shiiiiiitttt. Worked better in the actual program. Tbh, I wanted to get it to work so I could play Star Ocean 3 again. I've really missed that game and have been wanting to see if it holds up for me. Might even post about it here. Who knows. Aside from it looking a little less....shiny(?) than I remembered, it runs shockingly well on my laptop. I also kinda can't believe both discs only take up 4 gigs in all. The game is huge, especially with all the extra dungeon stuff after you beat the game. I'm surprised by how much I remember, although I don't know why. I went through a phase where i was trying to see all the endings and have played through the game just...so many times. Pretty sure I've seen like...half of them? I think i eventually gave up on even pretending to be a competitionist because all I really wanted to see was Albel and Fayt arguing like an old married couple and the implication that they slept awfully close in their travel tent like? I'm sorry, Albel was technically born well enough off, is probably rich, and lusts for nothing but battle and power, so somehow, I think he's going to have enough money to get them a big enough tent so that Fayt should have no idea that Albel is a restless, kicky sleeper. Unless they're fucking of course. Which they totally are.
It's going to be a powerful temptation to play it intermittently all weekend to try to get to Albel. *sighs* I know it's a lot longer than I remember until you get to the first option to recruit him. Iirc, he starts at level 20...possibly 25, and usually Fayt was level 30-odd. In any case, it's usually best to get him early as you can, otherwise you're gonna end up taking a detour to level his narrow ass, which iirc means grinding Moonbase quite a bit. Not ideal.
Ugh, I'm rambling already.
Idek, I've also been considering from time to time writing for real for real, a decent VG fic. lmao, all the stuff i wrote as a teen was shit, fucking pure garbage, and the stuff I wrote here awhile back is pretty shit too. I swear i only became a better writer as i've become a role-player and written with others.
